Work/Work/Work

Saturday, May 10, 2008

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Title: Work/work/work

"Way too much work"

This is a bio video for my art 553 class. As it is right now the main idea is that its supposed to represent my current sate of mind. And that has been work. Recently all the classwork/graduation/job-search-work has been quite a stress for me. But, instead of depicting the stress, I worked on showing different perspectives of the same situation: the view of the outsider towards me and the work, my view towards the work, and the view of the works towards me.

I'm Back! Finally I'm back!

Lets forget that I haven't uploaded anything here for several months and enjoy the fact that I'm back at work with my blog. There are many reasons why I haven't worked here, depression, work, procrastination, graduation, family, friends, relationships and what have you. Some fun and some not so much, and it seems like a hassle and of no particular interest to explain them all. So lets get on with business!

So, what I have been up to? The most important thing right now has been working with my graduation. I'm currently taking two video classes and polishing up (at least trying to polish) my Path to Enlightenment video. Also I'm debating on the purpose of having two blogs. Right now I don't know what I should make each one about. As its stands right now my video-place blog is rather empty and I would prefer to use it for videos, and personal stuff. However my stupas in video already has content and is more polished (here I go... using the same word twice). So until I decide what I want to do with my video-place blog I'll just use it only0 to cross post videos from blip , and this one will serve as a "base of operations" for my blogging needs. Also I've uploaded a few videos to blip recently so I'll start cross posting them to my blogs as soon as possible.

Oh! And to all who may be reading: The Master of Fine Arts exhibition reception is tonight at 6pm in the OSU Urban Arts Space. And the opening of the Bachelors of Fine Arts Exhibition (in which I'll be a part of) will be June 7th between 3pm and 9pm at the OSU Urban Arts Space and several other campus sites (I'll give more information about it as we go along).

Old sketches and current state of work

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Its Crunch time!

Indeed my friends and fellow readers, it's crunch time. The project is officially due next week and it needs to get done no matter what. Depression, anxiety, stress, life's problems can all go to wherever they're supposed to go because they can no longer stay here. This needs to get done. So what does that mean for you? Well, ironically, it means I have stuff to show you about my project.

Right now I've uploaded a series of sketches for the images that are going to be used in the video. Here's an example of one of the sketches (page 4)



As I found through my research, each level of a Tibetan stupa represents a series of practices that help you reach enlightenment (Bodhipakkhiya Dhamma or Shichika Sanjushichidohon). These are the sketches for these practices. On this page I have the images that represent the cattaro iddhipada, which are desire to act, effort, mind and investigation.

I also uploaded three of the finished images:



This is actually the third cattaro iddhipada: Thought.

About depression and my del.icio.us link

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

For those of you who noticed the odd del.icio.us link I put up recently... Kudos! It stands out like a sore frostbitten thumb in a sea of scrumptious glazed raised twist donuts (I'm a donut fan). So why did I put a post about depression in a art blog. Well you might have noticed the infrequency of some of my posts. And for those of you that know me, you would also know about my lack of progress in my project. Personally, I found her description of her situation surprisingly familiar to mine.

• "Sunday I slept all day, and it wasn't enough. Monday I went to work, but had to come home and go back to bed and sleep for many hours more, and it wasn't enough. Today I woke up, felt too exhausted, and called in sick so I could sleep until just a few minutes ago. It's still not enough. I'm not consciously trying to make the world go away, but that's the result."

I've actually been having pretty much that same problem. I just couldn't (more precisely can't) deal with my work. For the past few weeks every time I sat in from of the computer to start working on my project, my vision would blur, I wasn't able to concentrate, my stress would kick in into overdrive, and I just couldn't start working. Then when it came to sleeping I always had plans of sleeping for a while then waking up early to do some work either for the project or for one of my other classes. But not even having 2 alarm next to my ear and the lights turned on, would stop me from sleeping. I would just hit the snooze button for 2 or 3 hours, maybe be late for work, and then be grumpy for the rest of the day because I didn't wake up as I had panned. And like she says at the end of the quote: "I'm not consciously trying to make the world go away, but that's the result." For me, I'm not trying to make my work go away either, but when I don't want to wake up in the morning that what it feels like .